The Comeback

When I left off last week, I told the story of being on a painkiller narcotic (percocet) and quitting it cold turkey.  I had no idea that it would put me right into the worst depression of my life!  I am generally a very happy person.  How was this happening to me?  The Doctors decided to put me on an antidepressant which promptly added a quick 30 lbs to my body.  

I thought that if you had cancer, you lost weight.  I had no idea that some of the drugs that I would have to endure would have quite the opposite effect.  The good news was that I was healthy again…  The bad news was that I once again had a weight problem.  This is the second time that this occurred.  The first time was due to my chemotherapy.  I was constantly starving.  It took a long time to work off that weight.  

I was thinking, “How could I workout with a partial lung and a steel arm.”  Back when I was in fantastic shape, I did crossfit on a regular basis.  There was no way that I could do that now…  What I really needed was a “crossfit light” — similar ideas but at a slower pace so that I could participate.  

A girl at our office had just worked out for about 1.5 years at a place called Orange Theory and had lost 125 lbs.  I wonder if I could do that exercise?  I had not exercised in quite some time as I had surgery on my arm (and now had a metal arm)  and a chunk of my lung was missing.  Prior to my cancer, I was in unbelievable shape as I was participating in lots of triathlons and had just completed my first marathon when I found out that I had lung cancer.  

I was a bit nervous mainly because I did not know how my body would respond.  I am not anywhere close to the athlete that I used to be; however, I am now a regular at Orange Theory as I workout 4-5x per week.  I started right around Christmas and have been religious in getting back into “shape”.  

It is not easy as I sometimes struggle to breathe.  Sometimes I wish that everyone at Orange Theory had to wear a snorkel and exercise — then they would know how I felt.  Furthermore, I have a “steel arm”.  They put a rod through my bone from my shoulder to my elbow; thus, push-ups are a challenge.  However, this exercise has given my mental state an incredible lift.  I am completely off the antidepressants and I am losing about a pound a week.  It is not easy, but if I can keep this up for a full year, I will be right “back to normal” — my new normal.  While my new normal is nowhere close to my old normal, I am still very thankful as it sure beats the alternative.  

I give Orange Theory a lot of credit — I think it is totally responsible for getting me in decent enough shape that a few weeks ago I was able to complete my first “Fight for Air Climb”.  This was a climb up the Sales Force Tower in Indianapolis — just under fifty flights of stairs.  I will admit there were moments where I was incredibly winded and had to take a small break.  However, I was able to complete the exercise and I raised the most amount of money for an individual.  Sometimes, one has to celebrate “the new normal”.  I am very happy to have participated and cannot wait to climb again next year and to try to beat my time.  These are just small steps in the big comeback!!